A prayer of surrender

I had to rewrite the prayer Richard Rohr quoted, of surrender to God, as I am not sure I believe God exists separate from human beings. I am clear that the ego, the petty-self, produces little people, and there is a real self, a core within, which can liberate itself in the great struggle for maturity in mid-life- or younger, if the person is blessed. This is the way to do- not-do with the Tao, to flow like water.

Rohr quoted Joseph Campbell- Where you stumble, there lies your treasure- and the Prayer of Abandonment, by Charles de Foucauld:

I abandon myself into your hands;
do with me what you will.
Whatever you may do, I thank you:
I am ready for all, I accept all.

Let only your will be done in me
and in all your creatures—
I wish no more than this, O Lord.

Into your hands I commend my soul:
I offer it to you with all the love of my heart,
for I love you, Lord, and so need to give myself,
to surrender myself into your hands without reserve,
and with boundless confidence,
for you are my Father.

I rewrote it. I am not sure I am able to pray this. The second stanza may be the real self responding, or the conscious mind’s best perception of that real self:

Inner light
You are my truth and my will
without you I can do nothing
yet I block you because I judge you
as stupid or wicked.
I believe: help thou my unbelief.
I need to surrender, and my fear is terrible.
This is the perfect human
whom God created.
Help me let go.

I am worthy of life.
I am soft, gentle, peaceful.
I am alive already in my own acts
I am beautiful, if only I saw it.
I am wise, if only I trusted it
I am perceptive, and my fear is a blindfold

Rohr’s summary of the Word of God, God’s message for humanity, is beautiful:

Listen to your body.
Live in the Now.
Love all that is.

He also says “Slow down”, which I don’t think quite captures it: lose the frenetic, but be capable of swift decisive action in the right moment. That anxiety and stress gets in the way when you need to act. Shed the anxiety- chill out- to be capable of action.

There is the spiritual reality, the created Beauty of the human being, and there is the difficulty of acting in the world, amongst other human beings. More on this tomorrow.

7 thoughts on “A prayer of surrender

  1. How lovely! I am reading A Course in Miracles again, and learning again, that when we are not wholly joyous, we are obeying the dictates of the ego which are always insane. If we are happy, we are answering that of God in us. And it is so liberating.

    I love your re-write, thank you! ((xxxx)) ♥

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    • Does this express the idea?

      It is good, fitting, appropriate that I am this creature that I am- good for me, and for everyone. The joy of being who I am is constant. And- the surroundings, too: it is as it is, and that is fitting, and wholly acceptable.

      And. Something might be done which is good. You flow, in the Tao achieve without doing, and the good thing happens, and the good state is.

      And- I feel sad, angry, frightened, whatever. I am not yet at that do(not do) state. So the inner light interacts with the ego, the inculcated acceptable face of the human, and part of that is through feeling. We feel, we see things are outrageous, and by opposing end them. The flow happens, but lots of other extraneous stuff happens too, much of it around inner conflict between ego and real self.

      Very shortly after I realised I was on a spiritual quest, I realised that what I wanted was not to feel emotions I found unpleasant or difficult, such as fear or anger. And I thought, but that is ridiculous, these are human feelings, part of reality. And yet it seems it might be possible!

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  2. Beautiful rewrite Clare. The words express the thoughts very well. You are definitely on a spiritual quest to find…something…maybe spirituality..maybe a belief in our Lord…..not sure what myself. May your quest be successful and you find peace, joy and happiness in your life. Peace my friend ☺♥

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  3. You always express yourself so beautifully. Thank you.

    ACIM says that all negative states are sponsored by the ego, which is wholly insane, following a path entirely opposed to and afraid of our natural state of union with God.

    At the same time, natural emotions such as anger (not rage), envy (not jealousy), sorrow (not depression), are best allowed their expression and then to leave when they like. Rage, jealousy and depression are un-natural states that occur when their lesser states are denied. I have found that in acknowledging envy, sorrow…they leave, and are less likely to come back. And perhaps, becoming used to allowing ourselves to feel what we feel now, we finally come round to noticing how much happier we can now be, more of the time.

    Indeed our emotions are an essential guide for our wellbeing. So I have always experienced and believed. ((XXXX))

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