My poor enemy blogs say homosexuality is against God’s will, and I go on them to inoculate myself. These things trigger me. I get angry, and my anger ties me up inside. I have withdrawn in fear and terror. I wish to be able to hold and accept my own anger within me. I want to be aware of where I am in the moment- how triggered, how angry, how fearful of my own fear- and hold my ground and function. I would like to do that face to face. Blogs are a practice-ground.

Paul, in his comment here, says gay people cannot have a loving relationship. It is not Love, any more than paedophilia is. Then he says Your side has won the culture war, that should make you happy. Christians are the only group in our society that it’s OK to hate. Mmm. Paranoia and self-pity.

I hear the pain and hurt in his words.

What is he defending? The right to feel disgust at another person, merely for who he is. The right to cling to disputed interpretations of the Bible, when in our lifetime Biblical arguments against the mixing of the races have finally been laid to rest: our understanding of the Bible improves, as our knowledge of God improves. The right to feel better than gay people, to despise some outsider in order to feel better about himself. A cat to kick. Mean, horrible things.

File:Lucas Cranach d.Ä. - Christus am Ölberg (Tokyo).jpgDefending- himself, or at least his self-concept. A shared understanding of the World. A community where he can feel at home, because people think and feel the same way he does. It is because they suppress their other thoughts and feelings, and it is supremely uncomfortable for those so different that they can not suppress, but it seems comfortable enough for most. Humankind cannot bear very much reality.

I can sympathise with that. I find reality, other people, my ain sel, difficult. Jesus challenges that comfort. Matthew 10: 34-39:

34 ‘Do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I did not come to bring peace, but a sword. 35 For I have come to turn

‘“a man against his father,
    a daughter against her mother,
a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law –
36     a man’s enemies will be the members of his own household.”[c]

37 ‘Anyone who loves their father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves their son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me. 38 Whoever does not take up their cross and follow me is not worthy of me. 39 Whoever finds their life will lose it, and whoever loses their life for my sake will find it.

A man is set against his father because the world moves on, our understanding grows and deepens, and all must separate from their parents and find their own person. This is painful and difficult for both.

If we know our separateness and difference, we can come together, worship together, work together. If we suppress it, our hands are tied behind our backs. Coming to this acceptance of the world as it is, and others as they are; shedding comfortable falsehoods, feels like losing our life- but it is for Jesus’ sake.

6 thoughts on “My poor enemy

  1. I prefer to suggest that when we acknowledge what we have in common, what we share, then it is safe for us to be ourselves. Knowing that we all have far more in common with each other than separates us, is the security that permits self expression.

    XXX 🙂


  2. I really do believe that those who shout the loudest, meanest vile words do so to try to shut out their own innate desires to experience exactly what they are putting down. I believe that if they were to look into their inner truth they are afraid of what they feel. So as you can see, you Clare battle that inner truth about how to be you, but the difference between you and the others is that you are the bravest of all. You honour your truth by the aliveness you express here in the world in which you inhabit.

    Being human is not easy but it is a gift with unlimited magic all around us! To shut off our energy to hold anger will result in physical dis-ease, to let go and open our self to the light brings us to the oneness. It is our reason for being now here. 🙂 ❤


    • Welcome. Hello.

      Not all of us are that bad. They are frightened, I think, all their comfortable certainties dying. And some are angry, disliking being challenged. And they will always talk about the goodness of God, how He cannot look upon sin, and is wrathful, etc, etc. His Word condemns you, they would say. I know different, but getting through to them is difficult. They think they need to be explaining to me, rather than listening!!


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