Damned and saved

I’m sure his opinion of me didn’t change very much and he remained entirely unconscious of my being, as well as largely delusional about his own, but my new found confidence in myself, and my egoless respect for his right to simply be did bring about an unexpected change and, crucially, an easing in the anxiety I had always felt in my dealings with him.

From The Rivendale Review. I find the story inspiring and illuminating, but how many of us, do you think, are like that? Delusional, or aware?

I have been conscious of healing and maturing since February 1999. “Spiritual journey” and “spiritual growth” are other useful metaphors. Around that time I read Scott Peck’s work, who posited four stages: selfish and amoral; rule-observing; intellectual- working things out for onesself; and spiritual. The first time I read of his stage four, I did not

understand it at all; the second time, I thought I did, and decided that meant I had progressed, though Peck says that his “stage four” is only the beginning. I also read “Awareness” by Anthony de Mello, and got the idea of becoming awake, which at the time I linked to being aware of the spiritual journey and now link to Brené Brown’s “Vulnerability”. The “Saved” might be the people on the journey, or might be all of us: we heal and grow whether we are aware of it or not.

And yet, I am still groping towards seeing other people rather than projecting onto them. Perhaps this is impossible, perhaps one can only see in another what one can admit in onesself; so it helps to be able to admit the diversity and variety in onesself, in order to see others better. And I think that I do react badly to that in other people which I deny in myself- in any case it is all about me, but insofar as I can accept myself, I can see and accept others better.

Such a long path, this healing. How many are on the path? How many are further on it than I am?


Within the process of living, we are meant to heal our energies, to make them more strong and more expansive.

From Omni Vision. So much mysticism on the web! Ordinary blogs which I happen across teach me. I almost see things as Omni Vision does: my difference remains my agnosticism of spiritual reality. My perceptions are valid, but I distrust any doctrine or dogma explaining them. And so I could follow OV’s prescriptions as valuable, even if convinced of Atheistic materialism.

4 thoughts on “Damned and saved

  1. I am on the path to spiritual heaing, trying get get past Stage One: “selfish and amoral.” Trying to move onto Stage Two: “rule observing.”

    Have not read his books, but more on a spritual healing path of my own.
    Thank you for this very insightful post since it is what I am trying to learn about myself as well.


    • Welcome. I am glad to have you here. Most comments have a link to the commenter’s blog. Yours did not work, so I fixed it. Let me know if you do not want the link.

      Peck would disagree with you. He says that people in stage one cannot comprehend people in stage two, and that movement upward in adulthood is one of the most painful things one can undergo. It is the experience of the Born-again Christian, who then assumes that everyone who is not Christian needs that experience. He also says that he retains aspects of his former personalities: there are times when he simply wants to follow the rules, and leave decisions to other people, like a mature eight year old child would. The problem with this is that you may not like the decisions. If the rule was that you could not break up from a violent partner, then you would rebel against it. That is a sign of greater maturity, not less.

      Separately from Peck, I think consciousness of a spiritual path is a sign of greater maturity.


        • Thank you. I hope for strength for you, too.

          Each time you leave a comment, you can leave a link to your blog, or not as you choose. The way to do this is from the dashboard, click on “Users” on the left then “personal settings” which now appears under the word “users”. Near the bottom of that page, is a heading “Website”. This is the address linked to from your comments. At the moment, you link only to http://adogwithfleas which is not a full web address. If you alter that to read http://adogwithfleas.wordpress.com the link will work.


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