What if I am merely ruminating, rather than working through things?
That would be disastrous. That would be me, broken and worthless-
That would be me, who I am, where I am, after those experiences.
But I do not think I am just ruminating, because
it feels like I am working through things.
What of me, being still, doing nothing?
I am doing something. I am healing. I am doing the work of self-acceptance.
Not as fast as I might wish-
-as fast as I can, in this moment.
Everything is alright.
Darkness and Light to you are both alike- Psalm 139:20.
In the light of consciousness all sorts of things happen and one need not give special importance to any.
The sight of a flower is as marvelous as the vision of God. Let them be. Why remember them and then make memory into a problem? Be bland about them; do not divide them into high and low, inner and outer, lasting and transient.
Go beyond, go back to the source, go to the self that is the same whatever happens.
Your weakness is due to your conviction that you were born into the world. In reality the world is ever recreated in you and by you.
See everything as emanating from the light which is the source of your own being.
~ Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj, quoted by Miriam Louisa at precisely the right time for me.
The break in that for me, the suspension of suspension of disbelief, was,
“You were [not] born into this world.”
Of course I was born into this world. I am a physical being, in a physical world.
The World is not as I see it. If I let it be, I may see it more clearly.
Recreate it in me better.
Ooh, goody! I’m having a mystical experience! Happy dance!
My Inner Child, Ladies and Gentlemen, doing Inner Child stuff. I thank God for it.
What might this Strewthcrivvenswonderful, Mystic, Personal Growth Experience achieve for me?
Emotions attuned to the current situation not past stuff, held in awareness and accepted.
A clearer more truthful view of what is outside me, held in consciousness and accepted.