Can I heal people, by laying on hands or channelling spirit?

I know that this will do people good. If I pay someone my full attention, express that I wish her well, and do something through which I communicate my intention to do her well, it will do good, by the placebo effect, which is scientifically proven and demonstrated and explicable. It feels to me that there is something more, that the action and intention taps into the Life Force, or Holy Spirit, or Love, or something beyond both of us which works healing. There are many people who believe in such healing, and practise various styles of Reiki, or with the Friends’ Fellowship of Healing or the Healing Trust. I could find numerous Bible passages saying this is a gift Christians share, and it is a Shamanic practice. Hippocrates felt his hands grow warm as he came to touch a patient.

It is what I want to do, and I feel enmeshed in the paradox- “There is no God. God exists.” Could I do it if I doubted it? Could I bring myself to say things, unless I believed the Something, greater than us both, was moving as It willed for our good?

Trying to live male, I was enmeshed in lies and evasions which I took into my heart, lies which I told myself and thought were true. Transitioning, I asserted my own Truth, that I am female, which I had experienced being repeatedly and utterly denied throughout my childhood, which denials still hurt me a little, especially when I perceive denials from other people (though eleven years on this hurts much less). Truth is the most important thing to me. Something that I can know and cling to as True.

So, could I practise some form of spiritual healing, even while harbouring some doubt that it was more than a placebo? Should I learn one or more of the plethora of complementary therapies which are not, all, proven by rational double-blind peer reviewed studies reported in reputable journals?

My attachment is to knowing, rather than to Truth per se, and- to having an understanding, to holding a Position. What can I do when half of me says, “Yes, this is true and beautiful and Right and my Calling” and half says, “No, sorry. It’s placebo.” Please tell me what you think.

Rilke, from letters to a young poet:

 I would like to beg you dear Sir, as well as I can, to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.

 And- my questing intelligence and wise friends may help me with the questions.

3 thoughts on “Healing

  1. Concerning healing, the placebo effect and “knowing”: if any person feels that s/he heels with the laying on of hands, or with holding in the light, or with prayer or sending love and uplifting thoughts, what does the origin matter? Do we have to understand everything, in order to subscribe to beliefs? Clearly not. So perhaps the only question we need to ask is, “Does it work?” For healer, and recipient, does it do good? If we can answer yes, because we feel it, or know it, or flow with it, do we have to grasp the mechanics of it, or can we just cherish our love for each other?

    Some questions to ponder on this dreich day. And I send them with love, and the hope that you have a wonderful day, today and every day? Will my hopes for you work? I hope so!

    Ann xxx


  2. As a Reiki practitioner, I can attest that the doubts are very real and very healthy. There is an ebb and flow to doubting and believing in oneself. There are still days I don’t feel the energy as I lay my hands on myself and so I question the source and if I can really do this. I have learned to trust and remember that in healing another, I am only a facilitator, a channel. Trusting is hard and doubts are a very real part of being human.

    As my Reiki teacher said once, you can’t live all the time in the spiritual realms. It’s an ebb and flow back down to earth where doubts are part of the human experience. If we were to live in the spiritual realms without embodying our human form and connection to the earth, we would have a hard time functioning in the earth plane, miss out on the all the wonderful pleasures and pitfalls of materiality and probably wouldn’t want to incarnate into this human body in the first place.

    The only person we can truly heal is ourselves. Even if someone is “healed” when we lay our hands onto another, we are always just a healing facilitator. The energy channeled, is always guided by the recipient’s higher self to provide healing or lay dormant until an opening occurs in which they are ready to receive it. Everyone has this gift. Modalities such as Reiki only open up the energy pathways in order to better channel this energy and give you some structure to follow.

    In doubting whether we are capable to do this, we are in essence, I believe, hearing a part of us that doubts our own right to own our own healing and connection to our own God within. I think it’s so important to have this questioning, as Rilke so eloquently wrote above (I love this quote, by the way) as it is a catalyst to living the answer, which makes it so much more powerful than someone else handing it to you.


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