There are those who are in control of their lives, who are successful in business, and who are driven, and perhaps are unhappy.
There are those who need control in their lives, and, unable to assert that control in the World, retreat from it. I have met people who are afraid to go out of their own houses, or who live with others and stay in the bedroom. It seems to me that they seek the same control over what they can control- one room, rather than, say, a multinational company.
“There is nothing to fear but fear itself” misses the point. In control, whether of a multinational company, or a bedroom (or even, just, the space under the bed) one avoids fear out of a fear of fear. I cannot allow myself to fear, therefore I must control.
“Feel the fear and do it anyway” gets closer. Fear is OK. There are moments when fear is the natural and healthy response. And there are people for whom fear is unacceptable, and so they impose Control, and may benefit from knowing Why.
For me, I believe that it has been unacceptable in me to show fear since before I could walk. I think it is a deeply ingrained early childhood pattern, which continues to dominate me (making a mockery of any control I exercise). I give strength and energy to what I suppress. I want to accept my Fear.
I wanted my blog to be a record of process accomplished, not the process itself. Here, I am in the heat of my process.